Originally titled Grace, this award-winning novel gets a brand-new look in this beautiful repackage.
From the #1 New York Times bestselling author of The Christmas Box and The Mistletoe Promise comes a novel filled with hope and redemption about two teens who turn to each other to find trust and love.
If only I could stay with you forever. I would.
Eric is having a hard time adjusting to his family’s move from California to Utah. Then he meets Grace—his classmate and a runaway—dumpster diving behind the burger joint where he works. Eric decides the only thing to do is to hide Grace in the clubhouse in his backyard.
With the adults concerned about the looming Cuban Missile Crisis and his father recovering from an immune disorder, Eric grows closer to Grace but can their new relationship survive the harsh realities of life?
In this poignant, sensitive, and realistic narrative, Richard Paul Evans shares Grace’s heartbreaking predicament and Eric’s realization that everything is not as simple as it might appear.
My memory of her has grown on my soul like ivy climbing a home until it begins to tear and tug at the very brick and mortar itself.
ERIC WELCH’S DIARY
DECEMBER 25, 2006
It’s Christmas day. There is Christmas music playing from the radio in the other room. Mitch Miller’s “Santa Claus Is Coming to Town.” It’s a little late, I think; Santa’s come and gone, as have our children and grandchildren. They’ve left an impressive mess in their wake, but I don’t care. As I get older I’ve come to treasure any evidence of family. Snow is falling outside and all is peaceful and still. In such moments it is possible to believe that the world could still be good.
Something profound happened to me today. It started innocently enough—as most life-changing experiences do—with a request from my grandchildren to read them a Christmas story, “The Little Match Girl.” I’ve never been a fan of the tale, but, like most grandparents, I’m not one to deny my grandchildren. As I read to them, something happened to me; by the end of the story I was crying. Four-year-old Ebony Brooke tried to console me. “It’s okay, Grandpa,” she said. “It’s just a story.”
It’s not just a story, there really was a little match girl and she changed my life in ways I’m still trying to understand. Even the grandchildren sitting before me wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her. As important as she is to me, I’ve never shared her story. It’s finally time that I did.
My memory, like my eyesight, has waned with age and I pray I can get the story right. Still, there are things that become clearer to me as I grow older. This much I know: too many things were kept secret in those days. Things that never should have been hidden. And things that should have.
Who was she? She was my first love. My first kiss. She was a little match girl who could see the future in the flame of a candle. She was a runaway who taught me more about life than anyone has before or since. And when she was gone my innocence left with her.
There is pain in bringing out these memories. I suppose I don’t really know why I feel compelled to write at this time, only that I am. Maybe I want those closest to me to finally know what has driven me for all these years. Why, every Christmas, I occasionally slip away into my thoughts to someplace else. Or maybe it’s just that I still love her and wonder, after all this time, if I can still find grace.
Reading Group Guide
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This reading group guide includes an introduction, discussion questions, ideas for enhancing your book club, and a Q&A with author Richard Paul Evans. The suggested questions are intended to help your reading group find new and interesting angles and topics for your discussion. We hope that these ideas will enrich your conversation and increase your enjoyment of the book.
She was my first kiss. My first love. She was a little match girl who could see the future in the flame of a candle. She was a runaway who taught me more about life than anyone has before or since. And when she was gone my innocence left with her.
As I begin to write, a part of me feels as if I am awakening something best left dead and buried, or at least buried. We can bury the past, but it never really dies. The experience of that winter has grown on my soul like ivy climbing the outside of a home, growing until it begins to tear and tug at the brick and mortar.
I pray I can still get the story right. My memory, like my eyesight, has waned with age. Still, there are things that become clearer to me as I grow older. This much I know: too many things were kept secret in those days. Things that never should have been hidden. And things that should have.
1. “It’s been said that parents should give their children roots and wings.” To what extent is this statement true of Eric and Joel’s parents? How might Grace modify this expression to describe the role her mother plays in her life? In your experience as a child and/or parent, how do you interpret this statement?
2.Why doesn’t Grace explain to Eric the true nature of her dilemma earlier? How does the author’s decision to reveal Grace’s character gradually affect your appreciation of her difficult situation? How does Grace’s plight as a runaway make her especially prone to falling in love with Eric?
3. How does his father’s suffering from Guillain-Barré syndrome facilitate Eric’s concealment of Grace? How might having a relative who is seriously ill predispose Eric to behave with kindness toward Grace, when he first discovers her? In what respects is Eric an atypical teenager? How is he typical?
4. How does the threat of nuclear annihilation during the Cuban Missile Crisis intensify Eric and Grace’s feelings for each other? How does the crisis affect Eric’s immediate family? How does the author’s decision to set these character in this era impact your appreciation of the novel?
5. How does their Halloween encounter with Stan, Grace’s stepfather, affect Joel and Eric? Why does Stan abuse them verbally when they trick-or-treat? Why doesn’t Grace’s mother make more of an effort to protect her daughter from her husband?
6. “I just don’t think God wants us to do good things because we’re scared. I think he wants us to do good things because we’re good.” What does Grace mean by this remark? How is the morality of Eric’s actions complicated by the depth of his feelings for Grace?
7. Why is Grace successful at concealing her pregnant condition from Eric and others for so long? How does the revelation of her pregnancy affect their relationship? To what extent is Eric justified in taking offense when Grace describes him as a naïve boy who believes everything everyone tells him?
8. “Hawaii was just someplace I’ve always wanted to be, the way some people think of heaven.” Why does Grace lie to Eric about having come from Hawaii? Why is she so moved by Eric’s recreation of a Hawaiian meal for her on Christmas? When Grace writes in her diary, “Eric is my Hawaii,” what does she mean?
9. Why does Eric ultimately reveal Grace’s whereabouts to the police? Why does he blame his parents for what ultimately happens to Grace, and to what extent do you agree with him? Why doesn’t Grace say anything to Eric as she is led away by the police, and what does her silence suggest about her premonition of what will happen when she is returned to her home?
10. “My whole life I have hoped for redemption. Redemption and grace. I don’t deserve it, but I still hope.” How does Eric’s career path as an adult reflect the enormous impact of his childhood friendship with Grace? To what extent does he seem to have found both redemption and grace in his chosen profession?
Enhance Your Book Club
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2. What makes a multimillionaire decide to give back to those less fortunate in his community? Would you like to learn more about Richard Paul Evans and how his phenomenal success as an author led him to other philanthropic endeavors? To learn more about his efforts to provide emergency shelters for children at risk, visit the Simon & Schuster website to watch a video interview with the author
3. In Grace, Eric’s moving encounter with a young, innocent woman who is victimized prepares him for a career in social justice. How have you been affected by those less fortunate than you? When have you have felt compelled to help a stranger? Along with fellow members of your book club, brainstorm some ways that your group might contribute to those in need. For example: in lieu of a regular meal with friends at a restaurant, volunteer together at a local food pantry or homeless shelter.
A Conversation with Richard Paul Evans
Q: Grace takes place during the darkest days of the Cuban missile crisis. What led you to set the novel during that turbulent era of American history?
A: I initially chose the era because it was a time when society had still not accepted the existence of child abuse and, historically, there were thousands of youth in America roaming the streets. I chose the October of the Cuban Missile Crisis because I wanted to show the contrast of global destruction juxtaposed against the destruction of an individual life. As someone once said, “If the entire universe should explode, the moon and stars disappear and the earth collapse on itself, you still only die once.”
Q: How do the characters and plots you explore in your novels germinate?
A: First, the characters. With the exception of Richard in The Christmas Box, Eric, the novel’s male protagonist, is probably more like me (as a boy) than any character I’ve ever created. Grace’s character just came to me–a beautiful, strong yet damaged female character who is, like all my favorite characters, a study in contradictions. She is smarter and more mature than Eric, but beholden to Eric for his goodness.
I’m not sure where the plot came from. I started out writing a story about a wealthy man who takes a bet to live homeless for a month and I ended up with Grace. I’m always amazed at the inspiration that comes to me.
Q: Grace’s character remains elusive in the novel, though we get a glimpse of her innermost thoughts in her diary excerpts. Was it your intent that she remains something of a mystery to your readers?
A: I chose to keep Grace somewhat mysterious for the sake of the book’s climax. The twists near the end have surprised most of my early readers. Also, the story is told from Eric’s perspective for obvious reasons—Grace isn’t around at the end to tell her story. I included Grace’s diary to get some insight into her experience that wouldn’t happen otherwise in a novel written in first person.
Q: Why did you decide to allude only indirectly to Grace’s abuse?
A: Again, I wanted to lead the reader into her story. It would have weakened the impact to begin by laying out her whole experience. Also, this is told from Eric’s point of view. As he learns more about Grace he grows and matures. In this way the reader, and Eric, have the same experience. (Though I expect my readers are much more likely to figure things out in advance.) The reading experience is like turning the burner on full and watching the water start to boil.
Q: If Grace were made into a movie, as several of your novels have been, what actors could you happily envision playing the roles of the protagonists?
A: I’m a huge Dakota Fanning fan, so I would cast her—though she’d have to age up to the role. I’m not sure who the boy would be, though Haley Joel Osment would be good if he’s not too old by now. I could see Mary Steenburgen as the mother.
Q: To what extent do you set out consciously to examine or explore religious themes in your novels?
A: At one time in my career Barnes and Noble bookstores categorized my books as religious fiction. Though I am active in the LDS faith, I am fascinated by all religions and have studied many of them. I find myself seeking out the commonalities of our different religious experiences with hopes of encouraging, through my writings, the most hopeful, loving and redemptive qualities in all of us.
Q: In your experience, how do readers who are not religious respond to your work?
A: Quite well, actually. I don’t remember ever receiving a negative letter from someone in that regard. (Although I have received letters from people angry that I don’t promote a certain religion.) I’ve never been accused of promoting a religious agenda. They usually say things like, “though Evans is obviously a Christian, he doesn’t flog you with it…”
Q: Who are some of the authors you most admire and why?
A: That depends if you mean as writers or people. In terms of writers, I tend to read more non-fiction than fiction and I love the works of Marianne Williamson (brilliant), the late M. Scott Peck, and one of my new favorites, Erik Larsen.
Q: What were some of the challenges you faced in narrating Grace from the perspective of an adult looking back on his experiences as a fourteen-year-old?
A: It was a little tricky, as Eric the boy was frightfully naïve and I had to be careful not to allow him knowledge he wasn’t ready for. I just put myself in his shoes. I guess I haven’t lost the inner child. ;-).
Q: Can you discuss in a bit of detail the Christmas Box House International, its aims, and your involvement?
A: I am the founder and Chairman of the Christmas Box International. Our original goal was to build emergency shelters to help abused and neglected children. We’ve done well in that regard and to date we’ve housed nearly 20,000 abused children. Our goals have taken an ambitious leap this year as we launch the Christmas Box initiative, our objective being to give aid to every youth in America transitioning out of foster care. The statistics on these youth are appalling and I believe we can help these youth break the cycle of poverty and abuse and live productive, happy lives.
Richard Paul Evans is the #1 New York Times and USA TODAY bestselling author of more than forty novels. There are currently more than thirty-five million copies of his books in print worldwide, translated into more than twenty-four languages. Richard is the recipient of numerous awards, including two first place Storytelling World Awards, the Romantic Times Best Women’s Novel of the Year Award, and five Religion Communicators Council’s Wilbur Awards. Seven of Richard’s books have been produced as television movies. His first feature film, The Noel Diary, starring Justin Hartley (This Is Us) and acclaimed film director, Charles Shyer (Private Benjamin, Father of the Bride), premiered in 2022. In 2011 Richard began writing Michael Vey, a #1 New York Times bestselling young adult series which has won more than a dozen awards. Richard is the founder of The Christmas Box International, an organization devoted to maintaining emergency children’s shelters and providing services and resources for abused, neglected, or homeless children and young adults. To date, more than 125,000 youths have been helped by the charity. For his humanitarian work, Richard has received the Washington Times Humanitarian of the Century Award and the Volunteers of America National Empathy Award. Richard lives in Salt Lake City, Utah, with his wife, Keri, and their five children and two grandchildren. You can learn more about Richard on his website RichardPaulEvans.com.
Publisher: Simon & Schuster Books for Young Readers (November 10, 2015)