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Leaving Family and Finding Home

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Jessica Berger Gross’s “gripping memoir about growing up in—and growing out of—a deeply dysfunctional, abusive family” ( redefines our understanding of estrangement and celebrates the ability to triumph over adversity.

To outsiders, Jessica Berger Gross’s childhood—growing up in a “nice” Jewish family in middle class Long Island—seemed as wholesomely American as any other. But behind closed doors, Jessica suffered years of physical and emotional abuse at the hands of her father, whose mood would veer unexpectedly from loving to violent.

At the age of twenty-eight, still reeling from the trauma but emotionally dependent on her dysfunctional family, Jessica made the anguished decision to cut ties with them entirely. Years later, living in Maine with a loving husband and young son, having finally found happiness, Jessica is convinced the decision saved her life.

In her “unsentimentally courageous memoir” (Kirkus Reviews), one of Elle’s “Best Books of the Summer,” Jessica breaks through common social taboos and bravely recounts the painful, self-defeating ways in which she internalized her abusive childhood, how she came to the monumental decision to distance herself from her family, and how she endured the difficult road that followed. Ultimately, by removing herself from the damaging patterns and relationships of the past, Jessica has managed to carve an inspiring path to happiness—one she has created on her own terms. Her story, told here in a careful, unflinching, and forthright way, completely reframes how we think about family and the past. Estranged is “a memoir of love, abuse, despair, and hope…a reminder that any family can hide a secret and that many victims of abuse go their entire lives without speaking out about it” (Booklist).


Estranged ONE
MY FATHER SAID I was the one who started things. That what happened, that what he did to me, was my fault. He and my mother said I was fresh, a back-talker. I was too loud, too opinionated, and too smart for my own good. I was too messy. My brothers nicknamed me Messy Jessie. I was messy, just like I was argumentative and full of opinions. So some days I tried to go against my nature. I tried to be quiet. I tried to be a good girl. If only I could say or do the exact right thing, if only I could make myself ever so slightly disappear.

But I couldn’t control my father’s moods, and I never knew when a good day would take a dangerous turn. The best I could do was look for clues to his emotional state, warning signs that signaled trouble. I learned to fear his white V-neck undershirt and oldest paint-splattered jeans, the open can of Budweiser, the smells of turpentine and grease as he worked around the house or under one of the family cars, and the heavy-duty cream he kept by the sink to get the dirt off his hands and out from under his fingernails. Bills spread on the kitchen table. Frustrations at work. An argument with my mother. And on the worst days, the salt and pepper shakers or shoe or phone thrown at me from across the room, the fists and terrible words. I was a selfish bitch. I was spoiled rotten. I was asking for it.

My first memory. I must have been three or four. I remember my father chasing after me. His flat palm made contact with my small pale back. I can still picture myself running from him, pulling up my nightgown, and turning my head over one shoulder, straining to see myself in the hallway mirror. A moment later he was gone, fled down the stairs, but the pink mark of his hand remained.

My parents believed in corporal punishment. My father rolled up a newspaper to threaten the dog for peeing inside the house, and sometimes followed through with a whack. When I was very young, I was given the occasional spanking. My father would sit on a kitchen chair and put me over his lap, pulling down my ruffled underwear to reveal the peach moons of my buttocks. And then came the measured number of hand slaps to what my mother, who was watching, called my tushie.

This was different. When my father turned mean, he lost control. His face changed color. Red angry screams. I ran and hid in my mother’s closet. I curled up into a ball. I peered out through the rows of my mother’s silky dresses and scratchy slacks, checking to see whether it was safe to come out.

I hated having him mad at me. I hated being bad. I remember one of those days when, as a sort of psychology experiment, I decided to do everything, be everything, he could possibly want; to be perfect. I’d finish all the chores he asked me to do and then some. I’d bring him salted peanuts and shut up already on the couch. I pretended we were in the army and he was my drill sergeant and I was a new recruit in basic training. I practically called him sir.

He exploded anyway. I knew what was coming.

His rage was a runaway train. I had to decide whether to let him have me right away, or try to escape and chance angering him further. I decided to risk it and run. But he chased me to the stairs and trapped me so that my back was against the stairwell wall. My breath caught. I covered my face with my arms.

Please don’t hurt me.

There was nobody I could ask for help. So I asked him, the most powerful person I knew.

Please, no, I said. Please. No!

He raised his right arm. I didn’t know how hard the impact would be or how much it would hurt this time. But I knew his hands. They were dry and rough and meaty. I was afraid I would break and shatter when he put them on me.

I braced for what came next. My body hardened, my muscles tensed and tightened, even as my mind shut down.

Time suspended.

Then it was over. He was spent, and there’d be no more yelling or hitting. Afterward it was still and quiet. Like a heavy blanket of snow falling in the predawn while the neighborhood sleeps. Because afterward, when he was ashamed, he would never bother me.

Occasionally I went and found my mother propped up on pillows in their bedroom, grading a stack of papers. She wore a satiny bathrobe and had tortoiseshell combs pushing back the feathery wings of her brown hair, and slept under a sunflower-gold comforter. There was no need to explain. She couldn’t change him, but scratching my back with her long oval nails, she’d read to me. Other times she was nowhere to be found. And so I’d take refuge in my room. I’d shut the door and wrap my arms around my body, hugging my knees to my chest and comforting myself in bed with my books and stuffed animals.

My father’s words hurt even worse than the hitting, because words lasted long after the marks faded. They lasted forever.

Bitch. Which meant I was a bad girl, the worst girl. JAP. Which meant I was a spoiled brat. Cunt. I didn’t know what that one meant, only that it was the C-word and had to do with my vagina and made me feel dirty. I was a stupid piece of shit, he told me. I was rude, inconsiderate, selfish, self-centered. I was a liar.

On those very worst days, my mother had her share of cruel words for me, too. I was a naughty girl. I always thought I was right. I never listened. She said I’d been cruising for a bruising. She said I was too much trouble. More trouble than I was worth. Good for nothing. My mother didn’t hit me, but she didn’t know how to protect me, either. Instead, she warned me. You have it coming.

Or she wouldn’t say anything, and that was supposed to be sympathy, but it was nothing close to enough.

* * *

The summer before I started second grade, my mother landed a job as a reading teacher in a school district on the south shore of Long Island. We went shopping for a new house so she wouldn’t have to commute.

“Every few years we move,” my mother said, sighing, on the way to meet the real estate agent.

We’d left Centerport, in Long Island’s Suffolk County, and the house where I’d lived as a baby, after swastikas were spray-painted on our mailbox. In Plainview, a suburban town in Nassau County, twenty minutes closer to New York City, and with plenty of Jewish families, I had a big room with yellow wallpaper and a window facing the street.

“This will be our fourth time,” my father added. He smiled. Like the Jeffersons, we were moving on up. My parents’ first apartment together had been in LeFrak City, Queens. Then they’d moved all the way out to Stony Brook, on eastern Long Island, then Centerport, then Plainview, and now, if they got this house, to Rockville Centre, a town of hardworking Catholics and Jews and Protestants with nationally ranked public schools, a fifteen-minute drive from Jones Beach.

“Our last one, I hope,” my mother said. My parents were holding hands as my father drove. My brother Josh and I sat side by side in the backseat. Our older brother, Mark, was away at tennis camp and didn’t know we were moving.

They sang along to the radio. Moving meant a clean slate: new neighbors and another chance to be the kind of family my parents wanted to be. They would try harder; they would get along. They loved each other, didn’t they? Maybe they could even make friends here. My mother’s best friend, Constance, who had two boys my brothers’ ages, was back in Stony Brook. Her oldest son—who, like my brother, was named Mark—had developed a dangerously high fever in fifth grade, suffering brain damage. He was permanently altered, mentally retarded, not like the boy in my class at school who was called slow, but much worse off. The two Marks had been playmates as babies when our two families lived next door. Now Mark Stevens was nonverbal and needed to be carried to the toilet. Constance, who was beautiful and kind, had gotten divorced. She was a struggling single mom, and once he got too big to take care of at home, her oldest would need to go live in a special school that sounded more like a hospital. We were the lucky ones.

The real estate agent met us in front of the house. Josh and I were impressed. From the curb, we saw a Tudor-style beige and brick house edged with brown, like something out of a storybook. Josh and I unbuckled our lap belts and stepped out of the car.

Could we really afford this?

“It’s a stretch,” my mother was saying. She’d already seen the house and wanted to show it to my father.

“It’s a bit of a fixer-upper,” the real estate agent informed him, shaking my father’s hand. “But it’s a good investment. A property in Rockville Centre will always sell.”

“My husband is handy,” my mother said. My father knew how to fix things. He was smart, too. He had a Ph.D. in educational psychology and was a researcher at LaGuardia Community College in Long Island City. He drove to work with an ax tucked underneath the seat of his car. He said he needed it just in case.

“Marty, you could do the kitchen and the downstairs bathroom yourself.”

Climbing three steps to the front door, I walked into the house, which opened onto a narrow entryway with high ceilings and a sparkly fancy-looking chandelier.

“Is that staying?” my mother wanted to know, pointing up.

“Yes,” said the agent. “All the fixtures stay.”

To the right was a formal living room with wood floors and a real working fireplace, separated by a folding door from the family room behind it. On the left was a dining room that connected to the kitchen with the sort of swinging saloon-style half-doors I’d seen in cowboy movies.

“This will be perfect for Thanksgiving and the Jewish holidays,” my mother said, leading my father into the dining room. We usually had my grandmother, my uncle Alan, and his live-in girlfriend, Elaine, over.

Upstairs were the bedrooms, including a double-sized baby-blue room looking onto the street that my brothers could share, and a smaller one with darker blue wallpaper and a view of the backyard. That would be mine.

“Marty, you’ll have to paint this room,” my mother said, noticing me.

“Eventually,” he said.

At the top of the stairs, as if to make up for all that blue, sat a large and unapologetically pink bathroom, with original 1920s tiles and a pedestal sink and toilet and bathtub and a separate shower, for the children to share. On the other side of the second floor was the master bedroom, with two closets, including a large walk-in for my mother, and a private bathroom. This was everything my mother could want.

My father went down to the unfinished basement to inspect the water heater and oil tank and boiler. My mother brought Josh and me to the backyard to show us the very best thing about the house. Could it be? A swimming pool!

But the pool was the problem. My father didn’t want one.

“Too much work,” he said when he saw it. “And who do you think is going to end up taking care of it?” Perhaps he also pointed out that the humble pool, with a short diving board on one end and a ladder on the other, took up almost the entire yard, with no grass or room for a swing set like we had in Plainview.

The house was a bargain, though. My mother listed the reasons why on her fingers—the schools, the neighborhood, the house itself. She’d be a three-minute drive from work. The closest elementary school was a few blocks away, and the town had two synagogues to choose from.

We would take it.

At the signing, my parents sat on one side of a rectangular conference table, me settled behind them on a chair along the wall with a book. The sellers took the other side. My mother told me that the man who owned the house had made his money at the racetrack. Whether from owning horses or gambling I didn’t know, but either way it sounded seedy. Their kids were grown, and they didn’t need a house anymore. His belly hung over his belt, pushing it low and at an angle, like my father’s belly, only much bigger, making it so he couldn’t bring his chair all the way up to the table.

The adults worked their way through the contract papers. But there was one last thing. My father wanted the pool cover thrown in. The owner wanted to charge us for it. The two of them went back and forth, their voices louder with each exchange.

“Give me a break. What the hell do you need a pool cover for?” my father finally said, standing up. He was about to walk out and call the deal off. The owner stood up, too.

When we went out to a restaurant, I worried about my father stiffing a waiter because he wasn’t satisfied with the service, or even telling the hostess off. Sometimes it was just a sneer and some cursing. Other times he lost control. Now he looked angry enough to punch the owner, or one of the lawyers or the real estate brokers or the man from the bank, or maybe even me if I didn’t stay invisible.

The lawyers on both sides tried to calm their clients. I pretended to read my book.

“Marty,” my mother said. “I want this house.”

She’d grown up in an apartment in Jackson Heights, Queens. My father was raised in an apartment, too, a tenement, in Washington Heights. The right house, this house, would make up for that and everything else that wasn’t okay. My mother’s material requirements were relatively modest when compared to those of her teacher friends, some of whose husbands made much more than my father did. She wore her diamond engagement ring on one hand and a gold wedding band on the other, and had a jewelry box filled with costume pieces and a few necklaces in sterling silver or the thinnest gold. It wasn’t like she demanded fur coats and tennis bracelets. Besides, it was her money, too. She worked.

He sat down. The papers were signed.

Soon boxes filled our old house. I’d say goodbye to my room with the yellow wallpaper. My mother packed my Raggedy Ann doll and my Mister Rogers Talks About book and the plastic plates featuring our drawings that my parents had sent away to be made. Mine had green grass and an orange sun and blue sky and my name on top. My brothers drew themselves playing ball. We’d move in time for the school year. Mark and Josh and I would start over again. We all would.

To celebrate, we went to a Chinese restaurant in Rockville Centre and ordered egg rolls, even though they had pork in them, and a dish that came to the table on fire.

“Are we rich?” I asked my father. We didn’t usually go to places this nice. We’d have dinner at a restaurant that had sawdust and peanuts on the floor, or on special occasions we’d go to an Italian family-style place where I ordered the meatless manicotti, which came with the baked cheese satisfyingly stuck to the serving dish. But the combination of the Chinese restaurant with a coat check and dim lighting and signed photographs of the Long Island Rangers, plus the house with the swimming pool, made me think things had changed.

“No.” He laughed, putting together a moo shu pancake. “We’re middle class.”

* * *

Rockville Centre was the kind of place some people never left, and never wanted to. We were a town of volunteer firefighters, Ash Wednesday observers, Little League teams, and shared bedrooms. In the center of town was the Long Island Rail Road station—thirty-eight or forty-two minutes to Manhattan, depending on the train. The Golden Reef Diner and St. Agnes Cathedral. Not to mention the Fantasy movie theater and Hunan Wok with $4.95 lunch specials and a Woolworth’s that sold nail polish and greeting cards. Close to town were a small housing project and some low-rise apartment buildings. From there, neighborhoods of houses ringed out from the town center. Residents of the inner core were solidly middle and working class—policemen and teachers and insurance agents and nurses. In the larger, more expensive homes on the wealthier side of town, fathers were small-business owners and lawyers and the occasional doctor or dentist. Rich parents were in banking. Our neighborhood was right in the middle. Nice houses but close together. The restricted country club with a golf course that didn’t let in African-American or Jewish families (other than a rumored one or two) was down the street from my house.

Some mothers worked, but some didn’t, and their kids got to go home for lunch during the school day. After staying home with my brothers and me, my mother had been working part-time as a reading specialist since I was two, but now she was teaching study skills as part of a high school English department, and she hoped to be assigned regular English classes down the line. She subscribed to Ms. and Working Mother. At the supermarket checkout counter, she’d grab Good Housekeeping and Ladies’ Home Journal, too. (When I was old enough to decipher it, I’d pore over the LHJ “Can This Marriage Be Saved?” column, not knowing whether to pray for my parents to stay together or break up.) Some semesters she’d take an education course at a local college and be gone one or two evenings a week. At the start of a term, she collated reading packets on the dining room table. She had a closet full of teacher clothes—skirts with forgiving elastic waistbands and matching tops, culottes and wrap dresses, and the occasional pair of dungarees for Fridays. Lots of Liz Claiborne. Underneath she wore padded and pointy B-cup bras, and underpants that came almost as high as her belly button, covering the swell of her tummy. Twice a year she bought a new pocketbook. She collected “ethnic” jewelry.

As a full-time working mom, she didn’t usually have the time or energy for spaghetti and meatballs or taco night or breaded chicken cutlets or hot dogs or hamburgers with frozen french fries or frozen string beans or peas on the side, like she used to. It became easier to boil water for pasta shells and leave an open can of tomato sauce on the counter. (I hated meat, anyway.) She went to Weight Watchers meetings and ate turkey burgers without the bun and frozen yogurt for dessert. She hardly ever drank. She read contemporary fiction, favoring women writers, and had a paperback copy of Dianetics. She tried to remember to say sugar instead of shit. She wasn’t affectionate or touchy-feely, though she did like it when I gave her foot massages, and sometimes she’d scratch letters into my back and let me guess them. Her skin was smooth. Her nose was ruler-straight. She dyed her hair in the sink and hung her control-top panty hose over the towel rack. She was thirty-six.

Weekday mornings, while he listened to Don Imus on the radio, my father got out the cereal, Cap’n Crunch or Frosted Flakes or Raisin Bran, and if my mother didn’t have time for my braids or barrettes, he did my hair himself. Mark took the bus or rode his bike to middle school. Josh and I walked, or got a ride from our father when the weather was bad. We were on our own in the afternoons until our mother came home. When I was old enough, I’d wear a house key on a loop around my neck and let myself in. For now, my brothers were in charge. Josh, who was in fifth grade, walked me home from school, and afterward he and Mark, who was in seventh, took absentminded care of me, heating us up Ellio’s pizza in the toaster oven before running off with their friends to play catch or basketball in the driveway, or Ping-Pong in the basement, or, later on, poker in their bedroom.

In Ms. Doctor’s second-grade class at Wilson Elementary, I was the new kid, and I wasn’t sporty and preppy like the Waspy girls, or freckled and spunky like the Catholic girls, or doted on and indulged like some of the other Jewish children. I was growing out a Dorothy Hamill haircut, and my unruly hair would never fall straight past my shoulders. Plus, I’d become chubby. Pleasantly plump, my father said. A cute, mean boy named Mike called me “Bubble Burger” and got some of the other boys to call me that, too. Dave G. broke my pencil right in the middle of class, and my teacher said it was because he had a crush on me, but even though he had red hair and glasses, I knew that couldn’t be true. A boy named Val wouldn’t stop calling me names.

I told my parents, who told Josh to teach Val a lesson. It happened on the way home from school, right where kids and the crossing guard could see. Val started taunting me, and Josh told him to shut up. When he wouldn’t, my brother punched him. Val was tough, but only for a second-grader. Josh was older. Self-defense, my mother called it. My parents were certain we’d done the right thing, even though my mom could get in trouble because she taught in the same school district. You had to stick up for yourself. You couldn’t go like a lamb to the slaughter.

Josh was my hero, my mother said when my brother returned from school with blood on his shirt and a note from the principal. “Thank your brother!” she instructed me.

* * *

But at least my parents were home each night, packing lunches and making sure we had clean laundry and school supplies. My father chaperoned my class field trips (the only dad who did), and when I was younger, he gave me piggyback rides high up on his shoulders. If I needed something xeroxed for class, I left it on top of his briefcase. He sat on the couch with his sewing kit during 60 Minutes and stitched up the loose neck of my stuffed Sherlock Holmes dog, pretending he was a dog doctor. When I was sick, he moved a television into my room. In the summers, he put an air conditioner in my bedroom window and let me blast it, even though it was expensive to run.

He took me to a dance store to buy ballet slippers, and we left with a pink pair that fit just right, and a wisp of a dance skirt in black, and two leotards. One time my father let my brothers and me come to his office on a school holiday, and I ran and slipped in my rain boots. Blood poured everywhere. Fuck, he said, racing me to the car and carrying me in his arms like a baby. The emergency room doctor said I needed a dozen stitches on my forehead, right below where my scalp met my hairline. My father held me down and whispered reassurances into my ear as the doctor sewed me up.

Of course, I never talked about it with my father. I’d never dare.

A day or two after hurting me, my father would approach me with a wordless apology. He’d bring home Chinese takeout for dinner. My mother got her favorite egg rolls. He’d ladle extra wontons into my soup. We’d eat our chow mein. And fried rice, too—a splurge, since white rice came free with the meal. He’d caress my cheek with the back of his hand.

You’re my favorite, he’d whisper.

I turned to him like a dying plant turns to sunshine.

You’re the apple of my eye. You’re my sheyne meydele.

* * *

And so afterward, when it was all over, we pretended nothing had happened. We went back to normal. I pushed down my fear. I acted like I was fine. I sat in synagogue wearing a drop-waist Gunne Sax dress. I worked on my poetry report. I studied the words on my spelling list and let my mother quiz me on them. My father made my mother a dinner salad with boiled eggs and baby potatoes and lots of oil and vinegar and garlic powder. On Sunday mornings he cooked up home fries and omelets or chocolate-chip pancakes. He told me I was smart and special.

My mother never spoke of the violence in our house, which made me think I might be crazy. Though some days, after she came home from her new job, I found her sitting on the toilet in her bathroom upstairs, crying, with fistfuls of wadded-up toilet paper. I didn’t ask why. Other times she was sick or had a crushing headache or felt faint and hypoglycemic and would call in for a sub and spend the day in bed, and we weren’t to disturb her. Maybe she hated herself for not being brave enough to leave him. Maybe she thought he would change. But for the most part she was stoic and stony and seemed resigned to her life.

Once, when I was five, our parents saved up and found cheap tickets and took my brothers and me on a dreamlike trip to Spain and Portugal. We visited castles and climbed up winding stone staircases through ancient turrets. During breakfasts on the patio at small family inns, my brothers and I ran and played on the grass while our parents drank their café con leche, and we ate dinners together at outdoor restaurants as the sun set, way past our bedtimes. At a bullfight, I made my family walk out because I couldn’t stand to watch the gore, to hear the crowd cheering as the matador pushed his sticks into the bull. One afternoon my mother lingered in a shop in Madrid and bought two embroidered silk shawls and delicate lace-trimmed fans, one for her and one for me. Even though my father got pissed off when he couldn’t find his way around the city, and screamed at my mother when we almost missed our ferry in Portugal, that shawl and fan became for me treasured totems, representing all my family could be.

Proof that I wasn’t crazy or making all the bad things up were the planets of black and blue up and down my arms and legs and across my back. My father marked my body. He stamped me. A few times he even made me bleed, but never enough that I needed to go to the doctor. He never gave me a black eye or a broken bone, nothing that would alarm my mother’s teacher friends and make them call child welfare services. The bright imprint of his slaps on my cheeks always burned off by the time I was ready to go to school the next day. It’s possible no adult ever noticed anything.

My parents said I bruised easily. They said I was clumsy. And it was true that I bumped into edges and angles of household furniture that others might maneuver with a thoughtless grace. I was anxious in that house. When I knocked into something, a reminder of the accident would almost instantly appear on my pale skin. Too sensitive, my parents said.

Small things worried me. My mother asked me how many times a day I changed my underpants. Once, I answered, having never thought about this question. She said I should be changing twice at a minimum, in the morning and at night. Sometimes she changed hers in the afternoon, too, she told me. She was only trying to teach me things, but I felt stupid and dirty. It was difficult for me to have a sense of proportion.

There were times when I was happy. Roller-skating to a good song at Hot Skates. Riding my bike. Pumping myself high on the swings at the elementary school playground. I made wishes. On the way home from school, I sang “Maybe” from Annie to myself. I jumped on certain crispy leaves and wouldn’t step on sidewalk cracks. I hoped things would change.

About The Author

Photograph by David Zaugh

Jessica Berger Gross is the author of the bestselling book, Estranged, and the editor of the anthology About What Was Lost: 20 Writers on Miscarriage, Healing, and Hope. Her essays have appeared in The New York Times Magazine, Salon, and The Globe and Mail. She lives with her family in Maine.

Product Details

  • Publisher: Scribner (July 10, 2018)
  • Length: 288 pages
  • ISBN13: 9781501101618

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One of Elle's Best Books of the Summer

"An unsentimentally courageous memoir."

"A gripping memoir."


"Moving, fearless."

"Gripping yet hopeful."

"[A] memoir of love, abuse, despair, and hope . . . a reminder that any family can hide a secret and that many victims of abuse go their entire lives without speaking out about it."

"Excellent memoir . . . I couldn't put it down."
—The Rumpus

"What is most striking about Estranged is that Gross chose to share her story at all. She is brave and unshaken . . . Straightforward, unsentimental and matter-of-fact while still a lyrical storyteller."
Portland Press Herald

"In a world that celebrates the bonds of mothers and children, and surrounds us with images of happy families celebrating their love, Jessica Berger Gross has made a brave and lonely choice to cut ties with her family and their abuse—and braver still she has chosen to tell us about it. That she survived with the strength to get away is a testimony to her courage. Many readers will recognize their own story, or a piece of it, in this one, and when they do, find comfort."
Joyce Maynard, author of At Home in the World and The Best of Us

"Estranged captures the sorrow of a hurt child with stunning intimacy. Berger Gross weaves a tale of heartbreak and triumph from the sticky, knotted threads of family, trauma, and identity. A tender and beautiful read."
Leah Vincent, author of Cut Me Loose: Sin and Salvation After My Ultra-Orthodox Girlhood

"A memoir of painstaking clarity, Estranged illuminates the isolation of childhood misery and the grown heart's hungry quest for a safe home. For the many of us hell-bent on reality in spite of crazy origins, Berger Gross proves a sane and indispensable friend who understands in her bones that this hunt is a dire matter of survival."
Susanna Sonnenberg, author of Her Last Death and She Matters: A Life in Friendships

"In this brave, gripping memoir, Jessica Berger Gross recounts her traumatic childhood in a 'nice' Jewish home on Long Island and her bold decision to break away for good. Estranged is at turns haunting, infuriating, and inspiring. . . an unforgettable story for our time."
Eric Klinenberg, author of Going Solo and co-author of Modern Romance

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