“Emotionally resonant and deeply characterized.” —School Library Journal (starred review)
From the author of You’ll Miss Me When I’m Gone comes a stunning contemporary novel, perfect for fans of Five Feet Apart, that examines the complicated aftermath of unrequited love between best friends.
Aspiring choreographer Sophie Orenstein would do anything for Peter Rosenthal-Porter, who’s been on the kidney transplant list as long as she’s known him. Peter, a gifted pianist, is everything to Sophie: best friend, musical collaborator, secret crush. When she learns she’s a match, donating a kidney is an easy, obvious choice. She can’t help wondering if after the transplant, he’ll love her back the way she’s always wanted.
But Peter’s life post-transplant isn’t what either of them expected. Though he once had feelings for Sophie, too, he’s now drawn to Chase, the guitarist in a band that happens to be looking for a keyboardist. And while neglected parts of Sophie’s world are calling to her—dance opportunities, new friends, a sister and niece she barely knows—she longs for a now-distant Peter more than ever, growing increasingly bitter he doesn’t seem to feel the same connection.
Peter fears he’ll forever be indebted to her. Sophie isn’t sure who she is without him. Then one heartbreaking night twists their relationship into something neither of them recognizes, leading them to question their past, their future, and whether their friendship is even worth fighting for.
Rachel Lynn Solomon is the New York Times bestselling author of Today Tonight Tomorrow, The Ex Talk, and other romantic comedies for teens and adults. Originally from Seattle, she’s currently navigating expat life in Amsterdam, where she’s on a mission to try as many Dutch sweets as possible. Learn more at RachelSolomonBooks.com.
Publisher: Simon & Schuster Books for Young Readers (January 15, 2019)
Length: 384 pages
Grades: 9 and up
Ages: 14 - 99
Lexile ® HL690L The Lexile reading levels have been certified by the Lexile developer, MetaMetrics®
“An emotionally resonant and deeply characterized story of love, friendship, and identity in the broadest sense.” —School Library Journal, starred review
“Any book that makes snot stream down my face deserves all the stars.” —Book Riot
“A gutting, frank portrait of friendship that will crack open your ribs and break your heart in ways you didn't know it could be broken. Gorgeously written, haunting, and authentic.” —Jenn Bennett, author of Alex, Approximately and Starry Eyes
“Rachel Lynn Solomon’s melodic writing brings to life a must-read story that elegantly explores the complexity of mixing friendship, love, and a gift that can never be repaid. With hope, humor, and characters you dream and bleed with, I was up late devouring this. Beautifully told.” —Gloria Chao, author of American Panda
“An emotionally vivid story of identity, friendship, and first love. Our Year of Maybe shimmers, inviting readers to lean into that unique mix of fear and elation that comes when we dare to embrace our true selves.” —Ashley Herring Blake, author of Suffer Love and Girl Made of Stars